Dabbling

I've been "dabbling" with multiple programs trying to achieve a distressed yet appealing effect for my photos. Being the daughter of a photographer, I feel extremely inept. I've even broke down and asked for help which makes me feel like a failure but my father is more than willing to assist. I suppose I'm the overachiever or constantly in need of other's approval but I hate asking for help. I like to "wow" people on my own...however, being not so computer savvy and lacking top of the line camera equipment is extremely frustrating and leaves me no choice. I just wish good ol' Dad lived closer. I'm not to keen on "verbal directions", I'm a hands-on visual type. It's been a slow process but I'll eventually get it!